Yo Yo Yo

Hello Guys! Haven’t written anything in a while so I just felt like making this random post.

  1. School starts tomorrow. I have NO mixed feelings. All my feelings are bad. Lol this holiday felt so beautifully long; I’m no longer used to this school life. I would just like to skip to the point in my life where I’m happily married to Harry with our three children, Kamsiyochukwukosiemelem, Kaesiedeyanakwukwonsochukwu and Kanyinaetocimakanodinma Styles. I was thinking of naming one of my children “Chizaramokwumgbemkporoya” but I have three names already (I want just 3 children) and I don’t think just wanting to name one of your children something is a good enough reason to have another kid, and I feel like giving one of them two of these names would be a bit too heavy. What do you guys think? Lol, you know what? Fash, Harry and I will cross that bridge when we get to it x
  2. I’m living in denial. And no, I’m not saying this because of what I just wrote above -_-. Like almost every single news website is saying Bey lip-synced, but something inside me just cannot accept it. I don’t even know why this is a big deal for me. I mean, celebs do that ALL THE TIME and Beyonce is still most definitely king… PLUS it’s not like she cares that I lip sync to so many songs in my room everyday ._.
  3. I plan to be more outgoing this semester. I’m yet to hold a non-awkward conversation with any of my non-Nigerian friends (except Katie, Kimberly & Ashari) for more than 2 minutes. Like after 2 minutes, I just can’t… “Hey, how are you?, how was your break?”… After I say those three things, I’m just always ready to ‘escape’. Lol I feel awkward so easily in this country.
  4. I need to buy sweaters. This weather is certainly not of the Lord. The cold outside is so horrible that it even makes me question my existence.
  5. My New Year’s resolutions are going great! ^^.. (atink ._.) 
  6. Nowadays, I start feeling sleepy earlier in the night :/ … Like now… I was planning to watch PLL but I think I’ll just do that tomorrow after my last class WHICH ENDS AT 7:15PM!!! :((
  7. On the bright side, I have FRENCH and IV (Christian fellowship) tomorrow ^^ and totally random but I’ve fallen in loveeee with Swedish House Mafia’s “Don’t You Worry Child” (:

Well, good night guys xx

DATING IS BAD!!!

Wrote this last night but was too tired to post x_x…

Hi sweet-thangzzz! So today, I went to my family friends’ church, it’s a predominantly Nigerian Foursquare church. The sermon for today was meant to be on fellowship with the Holy Spirit but you know how Nigerians love to deviate. Lol before we knew it, the pastor (who I actually enjoy listening to cuz he’s so hilarious) had started talking about dating. He kept on repeating, “Dating is bad! DATING IS BAD!” Appaz he was talking about the immoral aspects and all that, but I wasn’t comfortable with the fact that he just generalized the term. Because by the way the parents in the congregation kept whistling and shouting “PREACH ON PASTOR!”,  I knew many of them would literally hang on to every word he said and go home and shout at their children, “Nkechi, did you hear what pastor said? NO DATING IN THIS HOUSE, YOU HEAR ME!?” Lol anyways, when we got back home, the topic came up at the dining table. And I went innnnnnnnnnn! Haha, if you’re my friend and you’re reading this, you know how I get when I argue-argue. I talk so fast with my hands everywhere, my eyes sharp, and sometimes when I feel super-confident about the topic, I tease and have this smug smile on my face, and I can be frustratingly dogmatic. Lol that’s how I was today cuz I could just NOT understand how and why people would get married without a period of dating or courtship or whatever fancy name you’d like to call it. Our (Me with my cousin’s support VS my aunty and uncle) argument went on for agessss but at the end of the day, we arrived at common ground. They agreed that the pastor might not have exactly chosen the right words but they made me understand why he said what he did. Along the way, my uncle said, “Chioma, if you are aware of these three things and always bear them in mind, you can handle any man in this world”. I’ll share these three things with you 🙂

1)      Men think with their groins and are GREATLY influenced by hormones.

2)      They don’t mean the things they say; they just want to get into your pants.

3)      They are NOT ready to commit.

I’d heard all these things before but I guess I didn’t just want to believe that MOST (he said ALL but I want to hope that there are exceptions to this rule, no matter how few they are) boys were this way. Hearing my uncle say them made them sink in more though, not only because he’s a man but also because he was speaking from his own past experiences. Eventually, the right boy/man/guy/whatever will come at God’s appointed time, but right now, guarding your heart might just be the best thing for you. Now, I’m not saying that people should have the “Cheating/heartbreak is inevitable” mentality… But I feel like even if you believe with all your heart that ohh this my boyfriend is the besttt, he loves meee, blah blah blahhh, you still shouldn’t let yourself ‘fall in love’ to the point that you’re completely vulnerable. Because if you’re at that stage and things don’t go according to plan, and you happen to find out that the person was either soaking your head in garri or he wasn’t exactly who you thought he was, you’d become so devastated cuz you’ve put so much trust in him and given your all to him. However, if you’re more guarded, I feel like yes you’d be sad as well, but at the same time, you’d be more cushioned for disappointment. Personally, I used to love trusting people but now, some of the people I really reallyy trusted have proved me wrong, and I believe that it’s always advisable to trust fewer people. But the thing is I feel like I might be reaching the point where even when the right person actually comes, I’d give the person a really tough time cuz I won’t be able to trust or I’d be too guarded. Oh well… Just felt like sharing some of my thoughts of the nighttt. Hope everyone had a lovely Sundayyy! God bless! 🙂 xx

Forgetting friends

Hello lovelies! Cool story timeee! 😀 ..Haha, okay so I had this friend in Loyola (high school). When he became a senior, he was like my favorite senior boy ever! Like I just had so much respect for him, despite the fact that 90% of the school hated him lol. And you know me I can argue my life away, so you can imagine the way I used to argue with so many people in his favour. A few people even thought I liked him sef, haha, but we were just really good friends. Well, after he graduated, we still used to talk and stuff, but when he got into college, it was like he just totally forgot I existed. I’m not one to beg people to be my friend, and though I know it’s a bad thing, it doesn’t take time at all for me to detach myself from people (whether we’re friends or not) once they’re beginning to misbehave or develop ‘I-don’t-care attitude’. Like I’ll probably still care, but I just won’t show it. But if you’re super special to me, I’ll always try to make an extra effort. So I didn’t give up on this friendship, I still used to try to send him e-mails and write on his facebook wall and all that. Yet, there was hardly any change or progress.

I pride myself in making my friends feel extra-special on their birthdays, even if it’s just by doing the littlest things like posting the longest cheesiest messages on their walls or sending them voicenotes or changing my dp 10,000 times to their pictures. So on his 2011 birthday, I got his pin from someone, added him on bbm and downloaded like 50,000 of his fb profile pictures to use as dp lol. I bbm-ed him saying, ‘heyyyy longest timeee, happy birthdayyy blah blah blah’. He left me on R for like five eternities, and then finally replied me with ‘thanks’. Shikena. No ‘how are you?’, No ‘What’s up?’, No ‘I’m sorry for not keeping in touch’… NOTHING. Hm. Me, as an ode, I was still trying. I was like ‘You’re welcomeee.. how are you blah blah blah’. Guess what he now said?… Lol, trick question. He said nothing. N-O-T-H-I-N-G. My message just pended there. That was when I was like Yo. Ain’t nobody gat time fo’ dat.

December 2011, I saw him at the EAC send-off party. He came to give a talk or whatever. I came in late, so everybody turned back to look at me (I hate that stuff so muchhh -__- lol), so I’m positive that he saw me. And we made random eye contact like one or two times. Yet, after the whole speech/send-off thingy, he didn’t even bother to say hi. I was talking to one of the other alumnae and he was standing in our area so I felt awkward not saying anything so I finally said ‘hi’, and he smiled in this playful yimu-like manner and said hi back. Idk how exactly to describe this action to you guys, I need to demonstrate lol. But that was just it. No ‘what’s up?’ or ‘what school are you going to?’, nothing. Me I just packed my load and left before it got any more awkward and I was slightly annoyed.

I never bothered to contact him again. Like never ever…. Till this afternoon. I was scrolling through my fb when his name randomly popped up. I was like ohh, long time, lemme just wish him happy new year. So I went to his wall and posted ‘Happy New Year. God Bless You.’. Five hours later, he graced me with a ‘like’. Homeboy couldn’t even dash me ‘same to you’. Can you see my life? See what I’m craving for; ordinary ‘same to you’. LOL smh. Well, I just told myself, ‘Chioma you’re just very stupid. NEVER ever again.’ You see THIS is why I don’t like getting close to people. It’s probably why I unconsciously do not put effort into some of my friendships as well. Human beings can be very disappointing. And it’s not even like oh I’m feeling righteous or I’m the bestest friend evurr. I’m really not. But one thing I make sure I do is even if I haven’t checked on you in forever and then, you start a convo with me, I will ALWAYS try my best to show you that I’m grateful for you making that extra effort, and I’m happy to talk to you. Even if it’s just by stretching the ‘y’ in my ‘hey’ or the ‘o’ in my ‘hello’, I still try. I don’t know if this is good or bad, but one of my new year resolutions is to just reciprocate people’s efforts. Like if you’re putting 0 effort, I too will put 0, or maybe -10. But if you’re putting 100, I’ll put 110 as well. At times, I feel like we all have to do this to determine the people who should really matter, and those that shouldn’t. Idk if anyone read this but if you did, thanks so muchhh. I really appreciate 🙂 xx