Random thoughts on a Sunday evening

Do you know the advantage of having a blog no one ever reads? You can write about ANYTHING you want and not get judged for it! It’s weird how my mind works. I feel this inner satisfaction from posting my thoughts on my online blog than on my personal laptop blog. Like I just like knowing I can post it on a public site. Yet, the public won’t see it cuz the public doesn’t read my blog loool that makes 0 sense but warrefurrr. I’m tired atm, about to take a short nap before mass at 7. I LOVE going for mass but I just can’t help sleeping during the sermon almost every single time. Could this be the work of the devil? 😦 Haha for real though. I need to take control of this bad habit because that’s how I’ll pass this trait to my children, and then in our future church, they would now label us ‘that family that likes to sleep in church’. Anyways, I’ve been struggling with something within me. I’ve been striving so hard to become a good person since the beginning of this year. Let me define this ‘good’. I want to be a person that when I hear people are gossiping about me, I just naturally say ‘Oh well, hopefully God will touch their hearts to make them refrain from evil’ and pray for them and forgive them in my heart and actually forget. Lol I know it seems impossible but I BELIEVE that there are actually people like this out there and I would LOVE to become one of them. There’s been some progress though. Before, if I heard someone was talking about me (someone that I didn’t consider my FRIEND, cuz no matter what happens, I can NEVER call any of my FRIENDS names behind their backs whether they did that to me or not, idk why), I would get SO mad, confront the person, insult the person die and all that. But now, I’m way calmer. And I keep telling myself to forgive and not reciprocate, but that’s the thing; I don’t want to have to tell myself to forgive. I want to be that person that NATURALLY forgives. I strive to be THAT person. But everytime I feel I’m there or I’m almost there, something always arises that drags me back to square one; either I hear that someone was saying shit behind my back or behind my friend’s back, and then it takes me like a week to let it go. I just dwell on it inside and imagine the various scenarios I could swaggiely confront the culprit in, but ALL THE TIME, I can’t, because I wasn’t meant to have heard about the things in the first place so I wouldn’t want to implicate my sources. However, the last time I heard something that was said about me, surprisingly, I wasn’t even mad. As in, NOT AT ALL. Like I was even laughing, and it wasn’t even that scornful laughter like ‘*deep voice* ho ho ho, I’m going to get this foolish goat back’. It was just like ‘LOOOOOL Oh yeah?’. Which is a good thing.. I guess. I think that I’ve just come to terms with the fact that some people are just destined to be destiny blockers and we should learn to resist them and block them from blocking our destinies. Another problem I have is that when I hear that oh my friend said this and that about me, as long as I usually think of that person as my FRIEND, I will keep considering the person my friend, and I always unconsciously start making excuses for the person in my head like ‘oh it’s not her fault… i don’t exactly blame her because… maybe this, maybe that…’ But I feel like I should try to stop this, because I feel it is a form of stupid naivete haha. Especially because I’m POSITIVE that if those people were in my shoes, they would not make these excuses for me. Oh well, my eyelids are droppingggg, and I don’t want to sleep in church haha so I should probably go and crash now.

Bye nobody/whoever randomly stumbled upon this!

Love youuu LOL

🙂 xx

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Francisca’s Twitter Rant

Excuse me i do not understand some of the things that go on on this twitter of a thing. Twitter is a social network, YES. But there is a but. Because twitter is a social network and we are all meant to socialize, does not mean that people should not mind their businesses. I mean like you just don’t come to twitter to come and porknose(however that is spelt) into someone’s business all in the name of socializing. NO NO AND NO I SAY NO it does not  work like that. This thing has been doing me for a very longgg time and now I KENNOT HOLD EET ANY LONGER.  Thats how i will be on my own oh jejely tweeting at my cool niccas and bad bitches. Okay lets say now i crack one inside joke or something or i say something stupid that only the two of us are meant to understand. One nonsense person that i don’t even know where he/ she came from will now come and add a comment. Asin its annoying and i am annoyeedddd.Or if i call my friend stupid/idiot/fool jokingly, someone will now come and write LOL. Ehen Mr. Man what are you looking for? Like who gave you audacity to el oh el? I called my friend stupid and it is between both of us like both of us only. And who is even lolling with you? What is the joke sef?  Don’t add your comments. Don’t even el oh el please. Like just mind your business. Yes that is what i have been trying to say. Let us adopt  the MIND YOUR BUSINESS policy on this twitter or else kasala fit burst anyday anytime anywhere oh. Please let us adopt this policy, for a peaceful and healthy twitter community.i’m sorry i really needed to do this rant. Tenz.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY OMOBA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY OMOBA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Moriadesheolaoluwachukwuemeka, Happy birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yo mehn, Omoba we go wayyyy back thoughhh. Like we’ve actually been friends since JS1, first day of school sef! When you came to famz me and say that you saw me at your St. Saviour’s funfair and I was like ‘Chill nigga, I know you wanna be friends with me cuz I’m so swaggie but you ain’t gotta lie’ B-) . And then JS2, we were best friends, and then you messed that up. Well, sucks to be you, cuz I was the bestest best friend ever. LOL what am I writing though? Happy Birthday Moji!!!!! I actually love you so so much and I know you know that. I love how we might not talk for ages, and then when one of us calls the other, we just talk like we were just in ljc yesterday, and we giiist and giiist for hours! I remember all those our table days with Ron, Frenx, Van and KOFSSSS! Hahahahah yo I’m actually laughing out loud. Kofsss of lifeee! I remember how we used to complain to each other about our ‘thingies’ and how we just used to suffer together lol. And then when you used to tif my facetowel and lipbalm. Yo what was actually wrong with you? Like you’re actually mad. LOL. And OH MY GOD, that your laugh that you have refused to change and that your cracked voice that you’ve been claiming that it’s because of puberty since JS1! Mehn Morad I miss you SO much! Can you actually come to New York AT A TIME THAT I’M ACTUALLY THERE??? -___- We really need to hang out! I hope you have a really really fun day, with Onyema ma nigga and all your friends over there. I’ll be there in spirit. I pray God blesses you abundantly, and grants you all your heart’s desires. May you grow in His love, precepts, divine favour and direction. May your swag continue to rise and rise till it reaches my level. Amen. Thanks for being a real G and an awesome nigga. You will always be at the top top section of my friends list, and I will ALWAYS be at the top of yours as well (I ain’t even arguing with you tho). HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN OMOBA!!!! *hitting wrists*
LOVE YOU!!!!!!!